A Weak Girl In Hiding
Pray and ask God to help you come to terms with your weaknesses and see the strength that is yours in Him.
2 Corinthians 12:8-10 “And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.”
In middle school, I was so amazed by Cristina Yang from Grey’s Anatomy. I wanted to be just like her. She was so strong. She kept her feelings on the inside and acted like she was indestructible. I wanted to be like that. I was hurt one too many times and was tired of it. So I went for it. I started pushing all of my feelings down, trying to be the strongest person and not show any weakness with ANYONE, including my family. I am still dealing with the repercussions of this mindset to this day. I struggle with sharing my feelings and being open with people when I need to. I never thought it was ok for me to struggle. It was ok for everyone else, but not me.
By choosing to be the strong one and never showing my weaknesses, I missed out on a lot of help that was sent my way. I suffered in ways that God had not wanted me to suffer. He sent me plenty of help, but I was too stubborn to let someone see the truth about me and my heart. This Scripture brings so much peace to my heart. Even though I was terribly weak, I wouldn’t show anyone. But God says when I am weak His power makes me strong. So now that that is the truth, I can boast about my weaknesses so that Christ’s power can dwell in me. I was keeping Christ’s power from dwelling in me because I wasn’t being humble and acknowledging my weaknesses. Don’t be like Cristina Yang. She hurt on the inside and continued to hurt until she opened up. See your weaknesses and Let Christ work.
Do I have the tendency to push my feelings down in order to be seen as strong?
Do I realize that true strength is found in realizing your weaknesses and turning to God?
How does this change my life and what are my next steps?